There
are days I wonder if I have that kind of future fight in me. Yes, there are
also mornings I do wake up energized and grateful that at least for today my
living with lung cancer will only be an inconvenient obstacle.
I try to
embrace each morning grateful but as a long term Multiple Sclerosis spouse caregiver mornings are lonely and more about organizing responsibilities than dreams. Advocating for a spouse who cannot rather than thinking of myself. How to
pay for today, more than planning some exciting plan for next week.
Why do
people without cancer feel a need to share that “we” could die in a car
accident tomorrow, or have a heart attack? "We" have not seen them or been in the same car since diagnosis. Or conversely, ‘everything will be
OK!’ Don’t think about it! … or in other words, 'They' don’t want to talk about it.
As for
me I would love to not talk about it, I would love to not even think about it
but sometimes it gets noisy in my head like opening a refrigerator or pantry
and the expiration dates all yell out at you.
450 people
die every day of lung cancer in the US
alone, essentially that is the equivalent of an airliner crashing and
killing everyone on board every day of the year – in what universe is this daily 'activity' acceptable?
by Patrick Leer
BLOGS:
Caregivingly Yours, MS Caregiver @ http://caregivinglyyours.blogspot.com/
My Lung Cancer Odyssey @ http://lung-cancer-survivor.blogspot.com/
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