Thursday, March 28, 2013

bring a cannon to a lung cancer fight

It’s been 9 months since I had a ‘no evidence of disease’ CT Scan.

I’m getting damn tired of the scanxiety of inconclusive scans creeping into my waking hours and leaving me tossing and turning through the night.

In November it was compromised by a chest cold and “concerning for new lymphadenopathy” recently a sinus infection “concerning for pneumonia” created a CT Scan impression “concerning increasing size for adenopathy”, lung junk vs lung cancer.

While in my real world, my wife's MS dementia erases my lung cancer, and I admit the cancer free outings with her are a treat. 

"Concerning" is not an acceptable word.  It’s time to bring a cannon to a lung cancer fight. 
Patrick Leer
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  1. Patrick, some people think that dealing with terminal illness is the worst thing that a person can experience. But it's not. Watching a loved one deal struggle, as your wife does... well, I think that must be the worst. You are a very strong person. Godspeed, my friend.

    1. Thanks Jessica! It's also about knowing I may not be there to see how it finishes for her.

  2. I participated in a clinical trial when i took chemo. I was required to have CT scans every 6 weeks and visit the doc every 3 weeks. I hated that time!! Each scan seemed worse than the chemo... the prep, the waiting, etc.... Now the trial is over and I have been going every 3 months and next visit, I'm not required to have a CT scan because of such good results. Of course, I am my own worse enemy and the thought that pops into my head is, "That's when it will start growing!" HAHA... I try to be positive, but it sure is hard at times!! Of course, it isn't as bad since it isn't in my face all the time.

    I think of you often, Patrick! :)


    1. Thanks Jackie! The consul of you veteran survivors means more than you can realize!

  3. The inconclusive results have been such a trying time for Ron and I. He will have surgery this month but we still have no conclusive evidence that this a malignant growth. Being unable to do a biopsy keeps us in the dark. Ron said last night, "What if they take it out and still say it's it inconclusive?" Of course we know that will not likely be the case. He's really scared of this operation and about not knowing what to expect.